Monday, July 7, 2008

Secret of my soul...

Strip away my thoughts with all my fears so that all I seek is love
These thought of you slowly consume me, but am I running low on luck?

night turns to day and light turns to dark as we all turn back to dust
but in the moments leading up to this time I won't let my will stain with rust

you want the change so become the change then look me in the eye
it's the worst of times that brings the best to mind so I'll hold them close by my side

finding best in me is the best in you I've thrown off my disguise
and behind the mask is a greater love where a greater hate can't reside

We're broken now but it's not the end you'll meet me round that bend
and we'll cherish life, and we'll cherish love and I'll celebrate my best friend!i

t's not the poison I fear or death drawing near but the end of time with you
will we meet again in some other time, and expanse so bright and blue?

Still I'm dreaming now and I'm hoping dear that you can read this and draw near
but as minutes pass and moments wain I've come to notice you're not here

but If I were a hand then you'd be a glove and I'd fit so great in you
and as soon as we met your eyes would see that the secret of my soul lies in you!

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Beauty (real beauty)

V1: there is beauty in this pain
for we all are one and you know we're just the same

but would you sell all that you hold to find this out?
or would you give up your pot of gold to fly through clouds?

pr-chorus 1: Cause we feel love and we feel pain
and we feel joy like the falling rain

we feel love and we feel pain
but we only feel joy when we hear your name

Chorus1: Lord if I fall I wanna fall like you did
With scars on my side and blood upon my hand
if there's beauty here inside of this soul
then the covering shouldn't have to look so clean

V2: There is a treasure amidst these fires
and if I burn for you, then LORD burn me alive

But would I sing true to you in a peacful melody?
Or would I run for my life and beg to be set free?

pre-chorus 2: cause we feel love and we feel hate
inside our world with a fallen fate

cause we feel love and we feel hate
but I only feel joy when you're close to me

Chorus 2: Lord if I fall I wanna fall like you did
With scars on my side and nails within my hands
if there's beauty here inside this soul
then the world is sure to try and kick it out of me

interlude: But you got back up after you fell
and you're rising through these hills with the voice of all I am
But you got back up and you told me I would too!
The pain last only a little while but this heart's forever true.....
This heart's forever true
This heart's forever true
beacause it's yours

Chorus 1 and 2: repeat one time each

(optional verse 3)- The king of all the nations with nowhere to lay his head
and it's my personal dis-affection that lead him to the end

still I sit inside this mansion with all these bones
awake but barely breathing am I a part of the walking dead?

Chorus 1 and 2- one time through

oh but Jesus you're still walking next to me
oh Jesus you're still walking next to me
Jesus you're the beauty found in me

{back story}-------------------------------------------------------------------------------Really this song is just about the way beauty,pain,love and hate are so intertwinned. We often times wish there wasn't pain but we never stop to think that if there wasn't pain then we wouldn't really be able to understand or fully appreciate love for what a great gift it truly is. The same holds true for hate...hate helps us to examine our own shortcomings even if often times we have to see something we think we shouldn't or hear about it ..or even be invloved in it before we realize this. I really believe this and I'm not saying hate is right or that pain is right.....I am not a masochist people lol. I am saying though that we can often times learn a great deal more from these things then we let ourselves and we turn them into untuchable things that we don't ever want to experience.....but if you don't experience these things in some way or another then your whole view of life and self is going to be skewed in a weird way. The song is about this but it's also about Jesus Christ. I mean, Jesus knew more about these things than anyone and I am willing to bet that the reason is because he experienced all these things to a greater degree than we could ever imagine.

[BEAUTY]- Jesus was the epitome of beauty even though he was homeless (that's where the whole bearded Jesus idea comes from) and the fact that he probably smelled....he had a heart for righteousness and so it didn't matter what his covering looked like ....after the cross he would no longer have this skin anyway!

[PAIN]- speaking of pain Jesus was on this cross, he was tortured, he was slandered about, he was blasphemed, he was mocked and humiliated! Jesus was not a name people spoke of proudly in many homes and places.....We get all in a fit if our friends do one thing that embarasses us, just IMAGINE IF HALF THE WORLD HATED YOU!!!!!

[LOVE]- Despite this mocking, humiliation, slander, blasphemy etc....Jesus died even though he could've instantly killed his executioners. Think about this would you go tell about God with the attitude that you ARE GOING to face this. I mean, Jesus not only knew about this but he was OBEDIENT TO IT! That took some guts my freind and he did it purely out of LOVE FOR ALL OF US.

[HATE]- if you've read this far you know all about the hate Jesus was up against and I am telling you as he did that if you are truly "in him" as a Child or Man or Woman of God then you will face the same hate...and that is SOBERING to think of ...you may face bloodshed, you may face death, you may face torture or humiliation for your faith....and if you haven't "resisted to the point of bloodshed yet" as the Bible tells us then be thankful! Don't gripe about these little sufferings you face in life because they could be a lot worse. If you do face bloodshed for the name of Christ however do not be afraid because this earth isn't your home anyway. You have a heavenly home, a home where the time spans greater than all the ages and you get to tell Jesus how great and wondrful his name is and you actually have time to express and show it because you have FOREVER TO DO IT!!!! praise God for that.

it is my prayer that the LORD may help us all to better understand how beauty, pain, love and hate really are related and how they work. Remember anything in and of itself isn't always evil. Pain can be good, our nerves sense pain to keep us from unknowingly exposing ourselves to danger. Hate in a sense can be good if we don't act out of hate itself. We should have a sense of hate for the things we know God hates. We all already know that Love and beauty are great and don't need a whole lot of explenation....we just need to learn what they are in God's eyes more so we won't keep defining them as the world does!